13.1 Reasons to go for it

Dear Running,

It’s obvious we’re at a cross roads in our relationship.  We’ve known each other for so long.  When we met in college, I was attracted to you because with your help, I could drink beer and not acquire the jiggle in my middle.  (Thank you for that.)  For years afterwards, we dated casually and like a loyal mate, you stayed nearby.  You helped me with that ‘fat gene’.  After other fitness suitors and few rounds of running celibacy (for god’s sake, ‘walking’ is nothing like your fine self) we found each other again with a vengeance 4 years ago. 

We couldn’t keep our hands off of each other.  We were pasted together like the soul mates we are.  In 18 short months I ran 2 full marathons and 4 halfs.  In the coming 2 and a half years 3 more half marathons a  number of 10k rendezvous.  Face it.  We were a hot item.  Then I froze with fear that you’d leave me.  That I wasn’t good enough for you.  That I was a fraud.  Trying but never quite making it.  I thought we were breaking up.  But I wouldn’t let you go.  When we are together, accepting each other for what we are, we are happy.  When we are fighting, I am not.   Still I thought our love was fading.  I was very confused. 

Earth Wind and Fire wrote a song for me about us.  Here it is.  It’s called, Reasons.

I can’t find the reasons
That my love won’t disappear
Can’t find the reasons
Why I love you ,my baby, my dear
Can’t find the reasons
Wanna love you all night
Can’t find the reasons
Gotta squeeze ya, real tight

Baby- yeah,
For my tears
Can’t find the reasons
Why I love ya….(fade to black)

Here’s the band (aren’t they cute):

Now, we have a big date this weekend.  We planned another half marathon together.  No matter how many of these excursions we go on, it’s always a huge deal.  I haven’t been around much to prepare, I know.  That Yoga and core work and my family have kept me very busy.  I know. I know.  Had I prioritized Us, it never would’ve gotten to this point, the one where I am Worried.  Scared.  Is it a mistake to do this again together?  I want us to be together forever.  Is this just a mid-run crisis?  I’m so torn up.  You know I’ll show up.  I will do my best but it won’t be easy.  Thoughts?

Your loving lover,

Clair

Dear Clair,

Get your head out of  your ass.  Do you remember how much you loved Us?  You praised our finding each other.  Probably talked about me too much!!

I don’t care that you love yoga.

  Just don’t give up on Us.  We can work this out.  Now here’s what you do to prepare for our next major get together, I mean half marathon in 5 days:

  • No more wine until after the race.  (don’t whine or smack me)
  • Sleep.  Sleep.  Sleep well.  Chamomile tea is fine.
  • Balance protein and carbs in your diet.
  • Listen to the music you love that pumps you hell up.  Like that cool group, EWF – maybe some Usher or Hurricane Chris or Eminem or P Diddy.  Word.
  • Sit still.
  • Believe in your self.  I get so tired of the wahh. wahh. wahh.  “I’m not fast  like Beth.” Or I’m not built like Amy.
  • Remember how strong our relationship has been.  How we have stood the test of time and we still keep showing up.
  • Buy a new outfit.  I want you to look and feel cute when I see you on Saturday.  I will be waiting.

Remember, Clair – I love you.  Now go for it. 

Your loyal partner,

Running

One thought on “13.1 Reasons to go for it

  1. seriously, clair. how do you do this over and over again? every time, unique! you are my absolute favorite blogger. love this one. good luck this weekend. though i don’t think you need it from me. your lover’s got you.

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